Thursday, April 2, 2009

Good Days

I am such a slacker these days with this blog. I think to myself everyday that I really need to write, but when I go to do it, my brain decides to stop working and I cant think of a single thing to write. We call that Chemo Brain. It really is true that this poison affects every part of my body. My goodness, my brain is a mess. I kind of compare it to the way your brain is after you have a baby times 100. Its crazy. Unless its written down on a sticky note attached to my forehead, I dont give it a second thought. I even forgot about a birthday party that Lani was supposed to go to last Saturday. She was upset but then said it was Ok because I have chemo brain. Sweet thing. But mushy brain aside, things are really good right now. I feel good and have lots of energy-until about 7pm or so anyway. My only issue is sleeping. Some nights I get so restless and sleep is hard to come by. But I will take that anyday.
I just read this book called Miracle of Faith. Its the story of Rex Lee, he was BYU's President for about 6 years and like 100 other big things. He was diagnosed in 1987 with non-hodgkins lymphoma. He lost his battle in 1996, but it was such an inspirational book of faith and perserverance. He had it way worse than anything I will have to face (hopefully), but I felt so inspired by his story because no matter what I face, I will get through it. Even though I feel like things are tough for me, there are a million people who have it worse and I have nothing to complain about. I know its weird to say, but I really am grateful for this trial. I have grown stronger and become closer with my Father in Heaven. I have been able to see what is truly important in life and to not let the little things bother me. On Sunday, the RS lesson was on the talk from the last conference " Come what may and love it". While I dont love this Cancer, this is what I have been given and I will try everyday to learn from this and to find all the positives that have come and will come from this. I really feel so blessed right now!!!

4 comments:

The Heiner's said...

Wow! Once again Shelly, you truly amaze me. You're optimism is so wonderful. You are a true woman of Faith! Keep up the positive attitude. I too, believe you can get through this. You are one strong cookie!
Andi (Jacks) Heiner

Cassie and Chad said...

Come what may and love it! That was one of my all time favorite talks. Wow what an inspiration you are to people all around you. You are fighting a courageous battle with so much grace. Thank you for letting us follow along in this journey. You are amazing!!!

Jenny said...

Bless you Shelly for having so much faith and courage! I still pray for you everyday! It sounds like everyones prayers for you are being answered. :) You ARE doing it, and you ARE going to make it!
Love ya!

The Dunford Family said...

Shelly,
It's a shame I don't have an excuse for my brain mush! I'm just brain dead most of the time and my kids can't feel sorry for me. Just mad that it might be genetic!
You're such an inspiration to me. What a talk today by Pres. Monson. Makes you stop and think how blessed we are and I'm so blessed to know you and call you my friend and be strengthened by your strong spirit. Thanks for writing this blog and keep looking to the positive!
Lots of Love,
Kristin