Saturday, May 30, 2009

The next step!!!

It has taken me a while to sit down and post, but holy cow...I AM DONE!!!! DONE, DONE, DONE, DONE, DONE!!!! And it feels sooooo good!

Chemo #6 is done and it went good- I guess as good as can be with chemo. I really only had one day where I felt the need to be in bed. I think by this time I was so done with the whole being in bed and being nasous thing that I wanted nothing to do with it. I rebelled and told myself that I wasnt going to be sick. At the last minute, I decided to go to Lakeside with my Mom and my sister. I still felt crappy and nasous, but not to the point that I was bed ridden. It was a nice change to the usual. I got my energy back earlier and the nausousness was gone by Monday. I cant even begin to explain how great it feels to be done. All the anxiety is gone, the nervousness and aprehension-its gone. I know I still have a long road, but I think the worst part is over.

Speaking of the long road, the next step is surgery and that is happening on Friday. I havent been the least bit scared about this. I know its a big deal, but its necessary and I know that once this is done, the Cancer will be gone (hopefully). This next week is PARTY week. Its "bye bye boobies" week. I am going to bid these babies farwell in style!! I have plans for fun times Tues, Wednesday and Thursday. Im not going to rest until I have to!!

I meet with the surgeon on Monday morning for final things and just to make sure that all is still good. I still need to do complete blood work to make sure my white blood cell count is good-but im not worried about that because I havent had a problem with that this whole time. I still need to find one of those bras that make it look like you have some boobs-im not about to go out hairless and boobless! Hopefully the recovery of this surgery wont be too long. Its summer and ive got all the kids at home who are bored already. Its going to be a looong summer.
I should start radiation after the drains are taken out. (drains are put in to drain the fluid that builds up after surgery) Probably about 2 or 3 weeks. (hopefully) After 6 weeks of radiation, 5 days a week, I will finally be able to start reconstruction. There are a bunch of steps and a lot of pain, but its well worth it. I dont really know much, but I will keep you informed as I know more.
So surgery friday, a little stay in the hospital and then the next step can begin. Wish me luck!!!!

Monday, May 11, 2009


Wow, I am a boring blogger.
Nothing new really going on right now and i guess thats not such a bad thing. This round of nausea stuck around for a while-Saturday was my first nausea free day- so I feel like it hasnt been that long since I was sick. I cant believe that on Wednesday I only have a week until the next one, but at least its the last one!! I have developed some pretty crazy pycho-sematic (I have NO IDEA how to spell that) symtoms. I cant drink my beloved diet pepsi anymore. I drank it right before I got sick and now I cant even stomach the stuff. Maybe that was a gift from above because He knew how hard it was going to be to give it up after chemo is done. I guess its a good thing, but its a sad, sad time. Im still greiving. I also cant step foot in my room. I cant sleep in my bed and I hate the sight and the smell of that room. I have been sleeping in Averys room for the past week. Bill is loving having the bed all to himself. Its such a strange thing-its the smell of the room. I get a weird smell thing about 4 days after chemo. Bills smells, Avery smells and my room reaks to high heaven. I smell it for about a week and a half and then it goes away, but this time its been too much. I just associate it all with being sick and I want nothing to do with it. Strange thing this cancer.

Anyway, nothing else too exciting going on. Just trying to fit it all in day after day and enjoying the sick free days. I feel good right now. Today I actually had enough energy to organize and clean out the bins in the playroom. Its been along time since ive had that kind of energy.

Its nice to feel normal-even for a day.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Home Stretch

Im on the home stretch and it feels so good!! I cant believe that I only have one more treatment left. It seems like it has been sooo long that I have been dealing with this, but its only been 3 months. This time around was the best yet. Im not saying it was good, but it was mild compared to all the other ones. I didnt throw up this time-not even once. I gagged a little bit-but that was it. Its Monday and im only slightly nasous and im only a little bit tired. Its great!! This time was hard in other ways. Laying in bed is the hardest part. I hate laying there waiting for the days to roll on by. I knew that once Sunday came, that I would be on the tail end of it and I just wanted it to be Sunday. My days consisted of waiting...and feeling like crap, just waiting for it to be over. My body ached all over-jolting bone pain, then it would go away. Then it would come back, then it would go away. Its all such a horrible cycle and I just hope that this chemo is killing this because I am NOT doing this again!!

Last week I had another PET scan. For free!! This lady in my ward works at a hospital that is opening a PET/CT scan department and they needed volunteers that had cancer that would show up on the machine so they could test it. I asked the radiologist if he would be willing to do a compare and contrast to my previous scan to see if things were shrinking. He said yes, but it might take a while. So I am waiting anxiously for those results, but it may be a few days. At my appointment this week, the doctor said he could hardly feel the lumps. Hooray!!
So now its time to play catch up with the cleaning and the lauundry and all that jazz.

My favorite part!!